I haven’t done a bumpdate since my 15-week mark, so I thought I’d start doing them every five weeks for the remainder of my pregnancy. Today I’m 20 weeks! It’s crazy to think I’ve reached the halfway point already. It’s a little bittersweet, but I’ll be honest, I’m so ready to get through the last 20 weeks. I’ve been super open and honest with you all on my pregnancy journey and how I’ve been feeling throughout this process and while it’s getting a little better, it’s still been hard some days. And man am I tired of people telling me to “enjoy it”. Not to sound negative or anything, but I read a post on this not too long ago and couldn’t’ have agreed with it more. I’ll have to find it and link the article to this post for you all. She brought up some great points!
Regardless of how much I hate pregnancy, I do feel that I made some slight breakthroughs in the last 5 weeks since my last update. Since I’ve been feeling super unattractive and uncomfortable lately in my new body, I’ve been trying to spend more time naked like when I’m getting ready for bed or when I’m getting ready in the morning. Rather than getting dressed before doing my makeup, I’ll walk around in my underwear and get dressed once my makeup is done. I wanted to be able to get more acquainted with the changes and was hoping it would make me more accepting of it. The first couple days sucked. And when I say they sucked, I mean I cried. A lot. But by the third or fourth day, my trick was working.
Related: First Trimester Recap
I had one morning where I wasn’t crying over how horrible I looked, I was crying over the fact that there was a tiny human in there and how excited I was that we were finally starting our family. Something we’ve been wanting so bad for a couple of years now. Part of those tears were due to my marriage being where it is. Zack coming home was so much more challenging than we thought it would be and this past month, we are finally in a really good place again. I couldn’t be happier with where our marriage is and that makes it even more exciting to be adding to our family this year.
HOW FAR ALONG:
As of today, I am exactly 20 weeks along!
SIZE OF THE BABY:
Baby Bartlett is 10 inches long and weighs 10.6oz. He/she is the size of a banana now!
TOTAL WEIGHT GAIN:
Maybe 2-3 pounds? Not bad so far!
Unknown until tomorrow so stay tuned! I’ll be sharing this update sometime next week. Still hoping for a boy, but I have a strong feeling it’s a girl.
Still not too many symptoms here. I had a week where I had a non-stop headache. It’s super rare that I get headaches and even when I do, I never take anything for them (I just hate putting medications into my body). But my headache was so bad, that I was willing to try anything that week. Tylenol is the only thing on my approved medications list and it didn’t so anything for me whatsoever. Being that I’m so small and never take pain relievers, they usually work instantly when I do cave in and take them. But not this time. Later that week, I caved in and tried the Mountain Dew trick. Although I was thrilled to not have a headache anymore, I was so mad that it was the only thing that worked for me. I stopped drinking soda in March 2016 and have been doing excellent with it and of course the ONE thing that fixes my pregnancy headaches is a soda that contains a ton of caffeine and sugar. Just my luck. But it works so I’m thankful for that.
Another symptom I’m having is acid reflux some nights when I go to bed. If any of you have any tips for getting rid of it, I’d love to hear them! It’s not every night, but I haven’t been able to pinpoint if it’s something I’m eating or if it’s just completely random. I have no idea. But it’s annoying when it does occur. Another symptom I had at one point was not being able to fall asleep at night. But I got the okay from my doctor at my 16 week check up to take melatonin and it hasn’t been an issue since then. Other than that, I’m still really lucking out with symptoms here.
Still my pre-pregnancy body. I think that will be the main thing I’m missing throughout this entire pregnancy. It’s been very hard on me. I’m also missing how “easy” cardio used to be for me. I had worked so hard on my running pre-pregnancy and was in a super good place and now it’s just not as doable which is really frustrating. At first it was because I’d get winded super easily and now I just don’t like the way my stomach bounces and feels when I run. It just feels weird. So I get in other forms of cardio instead and am doing my yoga classes and weightlifting and all that like I normally would.
Still in my normal clothes! I’m starting to wear certain tops less because of the fabric and I in no way want them to stretch even a little bit. Thankfully a good majority of my tops aren’t fitted though so I’m still able to wear a good majority of my wardrobe which is great. I’m super against waiting money on maternity clothes and am dead set against them. So I luck out that I have the wardrobe that I have.
I also caved in and bought two pairs of jeggings for the days where I want to wear jeans, but I’m also sitting comfortably in my office. My normal jeans still fit perfectly, but I hate buttons right now. Getting comfy on the couch or in my office chair just isn’t as doable with buttons. At first, I was SUPER against jeggings because 9 times out of 10, I feel that they look REALLY dumb and fake. And that’s just not an attractive look for anyone. But I decided to look into them and found two awesome pairs (from Walmart, believe it or not) that literally look identical to jeans. In fact, the dark pair I bought look better than my go to pair of dark skinny jeans that I have in my closet. So I’m quite impressed by that. AND they’re the most comfortable pants I’ve ever worn in my entire life. Seriously. They’re amazing. And this is coming from someone who doesn’t like Walmart clothing and VERY rarely buys from them. But they’re a win!
Other than those two things I am still completely in my normal everyday clothes. So far so good!
Nada? I’m really not noticing any cravings. Or maybe I’m just not very observant of it? I’m not sure. But I’m still eating normally and there’s nothing that jumps out at me that I absolutely have to have all the time or anything like that.
Oh gosh. Let’s just say I’m ready to unsubscribe from other people’s questions, comments, and opinions right about now. It’s been pretty bad. Originally this post had a rather long rant on how annoyed I am with people lately, but ultimately, I ended up deleting it all. Why? Well for one, I just don’t need that kind of negativity and two, I’m doing really well right now.
In all honesty, I’ve been feeling absolutely incredible these past few weeks. Well, as incredible as I can be while also trying to accept the weight gain and people’s comments and the lack of abs and all that. But aside from a couple of moments here and there, I feel that I’ve come a long way in the last few weeks. And I really owe it all to having an amazing husband as my main support system and keeping my health on track. I don’t have too many complaints at the moment. My marriage is the best it’s ever been, I’m super healthy and in shape, I look fabulous for being almost six months pregnant, I’m doing well in school, my blog is doing amazing, I’m taking a step forward in my career this month (more on this to come), our home is (almost) always clean and dinner is always on the table every night.
Given how stressful our life has been since Zack returned home and how much I’m hating being pregnant, I feel that I’m really rocking it right now. So to anyone out there who is concerned about me and who feels the need to constantly check in, you can stop now. And I mean that in the nicest way possible. Really I appreciate the concern, but in all honesty, it’s so frustrating at this point. It’s hard to move yourself forward when everyone around you assumes you’re on the verge of a mental breakdown. I’ve battled depression and anxiety for years now and at this point, I really do know how to handle it and what’s best for me during my bad times. I got this.
LOOKING FOREWARD TO:
Still looking forward to finding out the gender although I really feel we’re not getting what we want which saddens me a lot. I’m also desperately looking forward to getting my full bikini body back as well. And lastly, I’m SO looking forward to buying baby stuff and setting up the nursery. We’re only at the halfway point but my parents sent us a gorgeous 4-way convertible crib for Christmas and I’m now really wanting to buy more and get it all set up. It’s the first big purchase on our registry so it’s starting to get exciting. I’m sure it’ll be even more exciting tomorrow when we find out the gender. But I’m slowly starting to become more accepting and excited rather than upset and worried and miserable. Baby steps. But I’m getting there!
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